A couple of weeks ago, I ran my first live workshop on Pinterest Marketing.

Yes, it was small, but if you had told me 12 months ago that I’d be able to do something like this – stand up in front of people, talk confidently, and even manage to sleep the night before – I would have told you that you’re nuts.

I’d have told you that me and public speaking have never gotten along.

(Which isn’t strictly the truth).

I was about 12 years old, and was doing a Toastmasters course – so clearly I wasn’t so terrified then.

Also, at 12 years old, I was about 4’10” (I had a late growth spurt to achieve my current towering height of 5’4″!)

Anyway, my turn came round, to get up behind the podium and give my speech.

Except I was too short. And I couldn’t see over the podium, or reach the mic.

I remember a ripple of laughter from the audience (and that memory still makes me want to cry).

Someone came to my rescue with a box, so I could at least be visible and heard..and somehow I got through it, with a wobbly lip and an overwhelming feeling of embarrassment.

I’m pretty sure that’s the last time I ever stood up to give a speech (voluntarily anyway).

So, what’s changed?

Getting visible as an online entrepreneur.

To my complete and utter surprise, I am absolutely fine at plastering myself all over Facebook.

I enjoy Facebook Lives. I can sit and waffle on all day – and I don’t particularly care how tired or unkempt I look.

I’ve been delivering webinars, sharing videos on social media, posting videos of myself on my website (all very boring and above board, thank you very much!)

As a result, little by little, I’ve gotten over this fear.

I’m not sure I’m ready to get up and deliver a speech, but for the first time in forever, the IDEA of it doesn’t make me want to run and hide in a cupboard.

Why am I sharing this?

I’m not sure.

I guess it’s yet another little marker for me, that I’m on the right path, and following the right dream.

If your chosen career not only makes you happy day-to-day, but also starts slaying some demons…well, you’ve got to acknowledge that somehow.

(I might dare myself to do a TED speech one day!)

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